That was another thing about Xavier, he was nurturing. It was that very instinct that had him trying to turn Greg away in their early days, to protect him. He was so very old school, and it was Greg's perfect match in that they were polar opposites. She adored them both so much, and she couldn't imagine not being connected to them, not being their Vessel. It was just part of her now, but it seemed she was facing the very real dilemma of what it could mean for her if she took a lover, whether it be human or Kindred. Human, she would have this large secret from him, because it would probably be a real cockblock (and risk to The Masquerade) to just be all 'Hey, I let vampires suck my blood'. If she took a Kindred lover, she wouldn't have the blood stock to be a Vessel and let her lover feed from her when they made love. Which is what sex was for a Kindred. Their feeding was their equivalent to sex. They didn't have it without feeding. It was just what they were.

But she was lonely. And there were all these people around her hooking up and making it look good. Xavier and Greg loved each other, but she wasn't ever going to be invited into their relationship, because they were gay and mated. That wouldn't be what she wanted. Trystan was who she wanted, and he couldn't stand to be around her. Maybe she should just become a nun. Or a crazy cat lady. "I wanted a fuck, and he was offering," she corrected pointedly.