For a few moments, Jett was just sitting there looking at her somewhat coolly. In being Embraced, he had somehow managed to re-awaken with an epic poker face and it would be hard for people to know what he was thinking a lot of the time. He was learning that a lot of these traits were where his Brujah strengths lay. He had a high capacity of vengeance within him, which had been evidenced by him contacting the Brujah Primogen of Sydney to take care of Luka's father. Perhaps forgoing his young teen years to nurse his mother through terminal cancer and then enlisting in the Army to serve for his father when his father had been no longer capable, and yes, everything with Luka, meant he could be quite the dangerous weapon if a time ever came that he had to protect someone in his Kindred form. All of this, Molly was learning very quickly. All that was why Seamus wasn't getting an easy time of it having his best friend as a soul mate.
"Luka came here to die, okay. He came here to talk to me, and to say goodbye to me. He had every intention of ending his life. You just gave him a potential option, but when you turned it down, I can guarantee, all it did was make his suicidal thoughts become less of when, but how. Because even if you were acting in his own best interests, no Kindred power can fix mortal psychological illness. All you would have done was make him more depressed and pile on more self-loathing to himself. I know you think you helped him, but it will do you some good to understand that you didn't. None of us have helped him, all we did was make his problems more complicated and confusing. Then we have Seamus. Yes, he did cockblock those depressive and suicidal feelings in Luka briefly. I am not denying that. All I was saying from the start was that I knew Luka was extremely vulnerable. I felt it on him when I fed from him. That is why I was not going to leave Seamus alone with him when he was sick and even more weakened, and Seamus had no clue what it was Luka was doing to him. That was when I told Luka I wouldn't be around for a couple of days, because I needed some time to contact some people back home to try to get information on his condition, on his medications, on where he was standing physically and mentally. But in the meantime, Seamus made some sort of decision to steer clear and then Luka was left without him and without me, and here we have the end product. My biggest mistake was that after all that was told to me about soul mates and shit, I thought Seamus might distract him just a few days to buy me some time to help him and stop him killing himself. But I was wrong. I fucked up. It's my fault Luka tried to suicide," he said quietly. "And there's no point telling me it's not, because we both know it's true. And I'll own that. I will. And I won't fuck up the same a second time."
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"Luka came here to die, okay. He came here to talk to me, and to say goodbye to me. He had every intention of ending his life. You just gave him a potential option, but when you turned it down, I can guarantee, all it did was make his suicidal thoughts become less of when, but how. Because even if you were acting in his own best interests, no Kindred power can fix mortal psychological illness. All you would have done was make him more depressed and pile on more self-loathing to himself. I know you think you helped him, but it will do you some good to understand that you didn't. None of us have helped him, all we did was make his problems more complicated and confusing. Then we have Seamus. Yes, he did cockblock those depressive and suicidal feelings in Luka briefly. I am not denying that. All I was saying from the start was that I knew Luka was extremely vulnerable. I felt it on him when I fed from him. That is why I was not going to leave Seamus alone with him when he was sick and even more weakened, and Seamus had no clue what it was Luka was doing to him. That was when I told Luka I wouldn't be around for a couple of days, because I needed some time to contact some people back home to try to get information on his condition, on his medications, on where he was standing physically and mentally. But in the meantime, Seamus made some sort of decision to steer clear and then Luka was left without him and without me, and here we have the end product. My biggest mistake was that after all that was told to me about soul mates and shit, I thought Seamus might distract him just a few days to buy me some time to help him and stop him killing himself. But I was wrong. I fucked up. It's my fault Luka tried to suicide," he said quietly. "And there's no point telling me it's not, because we both know it's true. And I'll own that. I will. And I won't fuck up the same a second time."