Xavier shook his head. "I had not. I do still carrying with me a lot of guilt over draining you. Unfortunately, that remains with you forever when you drain your soul mate. But it also instils the bond between you. Had you not come back Embrace and into my presence, I would probably have been driven to a level of insanity or danger, and ended myself."

"Seamus has a commendable level of control, much higher than many of us. He always has. It was why it was so easy to resume the role of Sire with him. It is also why I knew exactly what I was witnessing when he first saw Luka at Knightshead Tower. There was no mistaken what it was, even if we did try to take into account all of the possible alternative." His eyes soften with apology as the met Greg's. "Trystan's Embrace. I know it was horrific for you, I watched it. It was never not going to be an horrific experience for you to turn him. But you do not remember the wake of it. I took those memories from you, my love. It was purely instinctive when I saw you in pain. Feeding from a dying person, you were so very ill for days. You reverted almost back to looking like a corpse, and it drained every ounce of strength from you. I did not want you to remember the agony. I wanted you to look back on your Embrace of him and remember why you did it, not what it did to you."