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[desperatebeliever]

Holy fuck, all I want to do is puke in peace and I have two angry bitches having a bitchfight in my hotel room while I'm driving the porcelain bus in the bathroom.

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[desperatebeliever]

I'm not worth it.

[kindredrevolutionary]

I'm afraid that is not your choice to make, darling. Someone else is looking after Brodie. Seamus wants to look after you.

[desperatebeliever]

I don't want him and Jett to hurt each other. It's like Jett can't control it. I mean, what is it like? Just when the feelings get too much and you don't know how to think straight?

[kindredrevolutionary]

It feels like there is absolutely no control left, and you have no choice but to do what you feel instinctually you must do.

[desperatebeliever]

I know what that feels like. Probably not in the same way, though.

[kindredrevolutionary]

The feelings may well be the same, even if the outcome is not.

[desperatebeliever]

I feel like I've messed everything up coming here.

[kindredrevolutionary]

Don't feel that way, darling. Your being here is a good thing... Especially for Jett.

[desperatebeliever]

I just lost it when I heard you talking to him, and I think it freaked me about telling him of his dad.

[kindredrevolutionary]

You know what... I never asked. How did you even know he was here?

[desperatebeliever]

His dad told me. His dad was only on a service pension, and he was waiting on a loan to fly over to New York to be with Jett, but he didn't have enough for staying there. Before he got that, he got news from the hospital Jett was dead. If he was just brought back to Australia, all of his father's expenses would have been paid, but because you wanted him in a different country, Jett's dad was kind of left without recourse. Which I'm not blaming you for. It's just bureaucracy. So after I... fucked up, I told his dad I'd come to see him and make sure he was okay.

[kindredrevolutionary]

Christ. His poor dad. After you "fucked up"?

[desperatebeliever]

He wasn't well since he heard Jett's mum passed. He had a lot of a guilt. Maybe he's at some peace now. Yeah, I had this mental breakdown and overdosed at a party my dad had.